ed survey

General

Age? 17

Height? 4"10

Weight? 110 lbs.

Lowest Weight? 100 lbs.

Highest Weight? 125 lbs. =/

What weight do you want to weigh? 65 lbs.

What eating disorder do you have? EDNOS.



In Depth

How many calories do you eat in a day, on average? I try to keep it within 100-300.

Do you throw up your food on occasion? Yeap.

Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress? No. That isn't the motivation. It's an extra perk, I guess.

Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track? I used to horseback ride.

Has anyone ever teased you about your weight? Sure.

Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long? I fast a lot. I fail a lot. My longest fast was 21 days.

Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories? Laxatives actually don't work. They work on the food in the large intestine, when calories are consumed in the small intestine. So, no. Why go through suffering for nothing?

Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses? Sure. Audrey Hepburn, MK, Angelina, Gemma, Alexis Bledel, Lauren Graham.

Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED? Once for mia and si.

Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting? I'm too scared to. I may at some point though.

Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder? Yeah. Tons of times. It'll never happen.



Body Image Q's

Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not? I am fat. They're liars. Saving my feelings is shit if you have to lie to me to do it.

What part of your body would you change? The whole thing.

On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body? 1

Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body? No. I value other things about myself too, but if I feel bad about my body, I can't value the other stuff as much.

Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed? Yeah.

Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses? Only all the time.



Health/Food

Do you think you eat healthy enough? Definitely. People shouldn't eat as much as they do these days! It's terrible.

Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs? Yes. I love and hate carbs. Favorite binge food. =[

Fat grams? Yes.

Calories? Yes.

Are you often tired/fatigued? All the time.

Do you feel more energised after eating food? No, I feel sluggish.

Do you eat meat? Gross.

Do you eat your food in a certain way? I love smelling my food before I eat it. Sometimes it stops the craving. I've always liked touching my food (ie eating with my hands) and the food can't touch under any circumstances.

Do people tell you you look sick or famished? Sometimes they tell me I look sick.

Have you ever thrown up blood? Yeah. I was so scared. .

Is your heart bpm above 49? No clue.

Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating? Sometimes.



Other Stuff

Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders? No, but they sure as hell don't help.

What's your opinion of Pro-Ana? Meh. Tons of my friends are pro, and I think I am too. I'm not 100% sure. As long as we don't "teach" girls how to be ana, I guess it's fine. =]

Do you have any other mental disorders? MMD, GAD, and some other stuff I don't remember.

What's your favourite food to eat? I love vegan pizza with pineapple chunks on it.

Favourite drink? Water or diet soda.

Do you often wish you didn't have an ED? Sometimes it's a huge bother. Other times I know I couldn't live without it.

Do you want to recover? No way.