My blog is moving. I'm not sure where yet, but leave me a comment and when I figure it out (within the next few days) I'll write you a comment with the link.
This one is too obvious, too easy to find.
Plus, it's weird because my user name on all other sites is anaannie, and anaannie was taken on this one, so I had to resort to annieana, which just. . doesn't sound good.
So, if you want to leave me a comment, do so, and if I so wish, you will learn where my new blog is going to be.
That one I will update more often, because it will be without fear of getting caught. ;]
I love you all dearly.
<3
7/30/09
7/27/09
Day 3 & Strong.
Day 3 of my water fast.
It's going amazing.
I had 2 guestbook comments on my ana site! Soooo exciting! <3
I'm spending the night at Rachel's house. No food, no food, no food, no food. No way. Not me.
Stay strong, girlies!!!!! <3
It's going amazing.
I had 2 guestbook comments on my ana site! Soooo exciting! <3
I'm spending the night at Rachel's house. No food, no food, no food, no food. No way. Not me.
Stay strong, girlies!!!!! <3
7/26/09
coffee
"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue center light pop and everybody goes " -Jack Kerouac
Today has been crazy. I had coffee for the first time in like a month and a half. I think my body had detoxified itself. I've literally been shaking for over an hour. It's crazy.
Nothing but coffee today. I will make sure of that.
My body looks like crap. I am sick of it.
Today has been crazy. I had coffee for the first time in like a month and a half. I think my body had detoxified itself. I've literally been shaking for over an hour. It's crazy.
Nothing but coffee today. I will make sure of that.
My body looks like crap. I am sick of it.
7/25/09
woot! woot!
Sooo, my ana site is officially up and running.
It looks a little crappy now, but I'll be fixing it up.
Any tips or anything you guys would like to share would totally be appreciated. Just leave me a comment here, on my site, facebook, myspace, text me, email me. . whatever. =]
anaannie.webs.com
It looks a little crappy now, but I'll be fixing it up.
Any tips or anything you guys would like to share would totally be appreciated. Just leave me a comment here, on my site, facebook, myspace, text me, email me. . whatever. =]
anaannie.webs.com
7/24/09
toilets
My dad left my mom and I a note on the kitchen table today about how the toilets were acting up.
I've known this for a while.
He asked if any of us have been throwing stuff like Q-tips in there.
Nope, I haven't.
I did throw slices of a peach in there. And chunks of a sandwich, and cherries. . . and basically everything I didn't want to eat that I could smuggle in there.
Hopefully if anything's stuck in there it'll dissolve and we won't have to call a plumber or anything. That would be bad.
I've known this for a while.
He asked if any of us have been throwing stuff like Q-tips in there.
Nope, I haven't.
I did throw slices of a peach in there. And chunks of a sandwich, and cherries. . . and basically everything I didn't want to eat that I could smuggle in there.
Hopefully if anything's stuck in there it'll dissolve and we won't have to call a plumber or anything. That would be bad.
kidneys
I had a doctor's appointment today.
They ran a urine test (what the hell is up with peeing in the little cups?? Does anyone else get the pee everywhere but the inside of the cup, or is that just me?) and found that I had increased levels of protein in my urine. I guess that means my kidney's not filtering it out and keeping it, and it's instead just running right through.
She told me I had to come back soon.
Which worries me.
I also found out that Illinois is even stupider than I had thought. You have to be 18 here to get medication without parental consent. In Washington it was 13. I miss that state.
So, now I have to wait until October to get on Zoloft and Lorazepam.
Anyways, other than possible kidney failure, I'm doing fine. <3
Stay strong doing what you do, loves.
<3
They ran a urine test (what the hell is up with peeing in the little cups?? Does anyone else get the pee everywhere but the inside of the cup, or is that just me?) and found that I had increased levels of protein in my urine. I guess that means my kidney's not filtering it out and keeping it, and it's instead just running right through.
She told me I had to come back soon.
Which worries me.
I also found out that Illinois is even stupider than I had thought. You have to be 18 here to get medication without parental consent. In Washington it was 13. I miss that state.
So, now I have to wait until October to get on Zoloft and Lorazepam.
Anyways, other than possible kidney failure, I'm doing fine. <3
Stay strong doing what you do, loves.
<3
7/19/09
survey #2 & today's intake
I AM:
[ ] anorexic
[x] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x] starving yourself
[x] participating in a fast
PEOPLE...
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic/ednos
I WISH...
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
I LOVE...
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[x] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I wear contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my trousers rip in public.
RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
SEXUALITY
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I'm addicted/ have been addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[ ] I'm at my thinnest
[ ] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[ ] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out
[x] I've fasted
[x] I've taken diet pills
[x] I've used laxatives
[x] I've purged
[x] Bulimia
[ ] Orthorexia
[x] Over-exercising
[x] Binge eating
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[x] I've fainted from exhaustion
I'VE DONE:
[ ] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[x] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
OTHER QUESTIONS
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have an ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food, it's a love/hate relationship
[x] I want to be this way
[x] I don't want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[ ] Being thin is my top priority
[x] I don't want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment
[x] I'm doing this for me
[ ] I'm doing this for someone
[x] I'm doing this to prove myself
Alrightey.
Today, I had a sandwich.
Gross.
Allowed: Lettuce, tomatoes, Unaaceptable: cheddar cheese, bread, ranch.
I feel so dumb.
Basically, my parents wanted me to eat once during the day, and I didn't want to lie to them. Lying does not come easily to me. I suck at it, but it also feels so weird to do.
So, basically, I screwed up my fast.
Tomorrow's a new day, and I really think the exercise pretty much canceled out the sandwich.
<3
[ ] anorexic
[x] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[ ] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[x] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x] starving yourself
[x] participating in a fast
PEOPLE...
[ ] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[ ] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[x] force me to eat
[ ] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic/ednos
I WISH...
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
I LOVE...
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[x] being weak
[x] losing weight
[x] being anorexic
[x] green tea
[x] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[ ] I wear contacts.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my trousers rip in public.
RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
SEXUALITY
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[x] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I'm addicted/ have been addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[ ] I'm at my thinnest
[ ] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[ ] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out
[x] I've fasted
[x] I've taken diet pills
[x] I've used laxatives
[x] I've purged
[x] Bulimia
[ ] Orthorexia
[x] Over-exercising
[x] Binge eating
[x] I exercise
[x] I exercise so I can eat
[x] I work out secretly
[x] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[x] I've fainted from exhaustion
I'VE DONE:
[ ] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[x] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[ ] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[ ] Cocaine
OTHER QUESTIONS
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have an ED blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
[x] I condone pro-ana/mia sites
[x] I count calories
[x] I've had negative intake days
[x] I avoid food
[x] I hate food
[x] I love food, it's a love/hate relationship
[x] I want to be this way
[x] I don't want to be like this
[x] I wish I could have more control
[ ] Being thin is my top priority
[x] I don't want to get better
[ ] I am in treatment
[x] I'm doing this for me
[ ] I'm doing this for someone
[x] I'm doing this to prove myself
Alrightey.
Today, I had a sandwich.
Gross.
Allowed: Lettuce, tomatoes, Unaaceptable: cheddar cheese, bread, ranch.
I feel so dumb.
Basically, my parents wanted me to eat once during the day, and I didn't want to lie to them. Lying does not come easily to me. I suck at it, but it also feels so weird to do.
So, basically, I screwed up my fast.
Tomorrow's a new day, and I really think the exercise pretty much canceled out the sandwich.
<3
ed survey
General
Age? 17
Height? 4"10
Weight? 110 lbs.
Lowest Weight? 100 lbs.
Highest Weight? 125 lbs. =/
What weight do you want to weigh? 65 lbs.
What eating disorder do you have? EDNOS.
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average? I try to keep it within 100-300.
Do you throw up your food on occasion? Yeap.
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress? No. That isn't the motivation. It's an extra perk, I guess.
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track? I used to horseback ride.
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight? Sure.
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long? I fast a lot. I fail a lot. My longest fast was 21 days.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories? Laxatives actually don't work. They work on the food in the large intestine, when calories are consumed in the small intestine. So, no. Why go through suffering for nothing?
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses? Sure. Audrey Hepburn, MK, Angelina, Gemma, Alexis Bledel, Lauren Graham.
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED? Once for mia and si.
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting? I'm too scared to. I may at some point though.
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder? Yeah. Tons of times. It'll never happen.
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not? I am fat. They're liars. Saving my feelings is shit if you have to lie to me to do it.
What part of your body would you change? The whole thing.
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body? 1
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body? No. I value other things about myself too, but if I feel bad about my body, I can't value the other stuff as much.
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed? Yeah.
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses? Only all the time.
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough? Definitely. People shouldn't eat as much as they do these days! It's terrible.
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs? Yes. I love and hate carbs. Favorite binge food. =[
Fat grams? Yes.
Calories? Yes.
Are you often tired/fatigued? All the time.
Do you feel more energised after eating food? No, I feel sluggish.
Do you eat meat? Gross.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? I love smelling my food before I eat it. Sometimes it stops the craving. I've always liked touching my food (ie eating with my hands) and the food can't touch under any circumstances.
Do people tell you you look sick or famished? Sometimes they tell me I look sick.
Have you ever thrown up blood? Yeah. I was so scared. .
Is your heart bpm above 49? No clue.
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating? Sometimes.
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders? No, but they sure as hell don't help.
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana? Meh. Tons of my friends are pro, and I think I am too. I'm not 100% sure. As long as we don't "teach" girls how to be ana, I guess it's fine. =]
Do you have any other mental disorders? MMD, GAD, and some other stuff I don't remember.
What's your favourite food to eat? I love vegan pizza with pineapple chunks on it.
Favourite drink? Water or diet soda.
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED? Sometimes it's a huge bother. Other times I know I couldn't live without it.
Do you want to recover? No way.
Age? 17
Height? 4"10
Weight? 110 lbs.
Lowest Weight? 100 lbs.
Highest Weight? 125 lbs. =/
What weight do you want to weigh? 65 lbs.
What eating disorder do you have? EDNOS.
In Depth
How many calories do you eat in a day, on average? I try to keep it within 100-300.
Do you throw up your food on occasion? Yeap.
Do you want to look like a supermodel/actress? No. That isn't the motivation. It's an extra perk, I guess.
Are you in some sort of extracurricular sport, ie soccer or track? I used to horseback ride.
Has anyone ever teased you about your weight? Sure.
Have you ever fasted? If so, for how long? I fast a lot. I fail a lot. My longest fast was 21 days.
Do you take laxatives to get rid of food/calories? Laxatives actually don't work. They work on the food in the large intestine, when calories are consumed in the small intestine. So, no. Why go through suffering for nothing?
Are you 'inspired' by models/actresses? Sure. Audrey Hepburn, MK, Angelina, Gemma, Alexis Bledel, Lauren Graham.
Have you ever been hospitalised for your ED? Once for mia and si.
Have you ever ingested Ipecac to induce vomiting? I'm too scared to. I may at some point though.
Have you ever tried to recover from your eating disorder? Yeah. Tons of times. It'll never happen.
Body Image Q's
Do you constantly see yourself as fat, even though others say you are not? I am fat. They're liars. Saving my feelings is shit if you have to lie to me to do it.
What part of your body would you change? The whole thing.
On a scale of 1-10, how happy are you with your body? 1
Do you judge your value/merit solely on your weight/body? No. I value other things about myself too, but if I feel bad about my body, I can't value the other stuff as much.
Because of your body apperance/weight, have you become severely depressed? Yeah.
Do you constantly compare your bodies to supermodels/actresses? Only all the time.
Health/Food
Do you think you eat healthy enough? Definitely. People shouldn't eat as much as they do these days! It's terrible.
Are you morbidly afraid to eat carbs? Yes. I love and hate carbs. Favorite binge food. =[
Fat grams? Yes.
Calories? Yes.
Are you often tired/fatigued? All the time.
Do you feel more energised after eating food? No, I feel sluggish.
Do you eat meat? Gross.
Do you eat your food in a certain way? I love smelling my food before I eat it. Sometimes it stops the craving. I've always liked touching my food (ie eating with my hands) and the food can't touch under any circumstances.
Do people tell you you look sick or famished? Sometimes they tell me I look sick.
Have you ever thrown up blood? Yeah. I was so scared. .
Is your heart bpm above 49? No clue.
Do you have fainting spells from lack of eating? Sometimes.
Other Stuff
Do you think the media is at fault for the prevalence of eating disorders? No, but they sure as hell don't help.
What's your opinion of Pro-Ana? Meh. Tons of my friends are pro, and I think I am too. I'm not 100% sure. As long as we don't "teach" girls how to be ana, I guess it's fine. =]
Do you have any other mental disorders? MMD, GAD, and some other stuff I don't remember.
What's your favourite food to eat? I love vegan pizza with pineapple chunks on it.
Favourite drink? Water or diet soda.
Do you often wish you didn't have an ED? Sometimes it's a huge bother. Other times I know I couldn't live without it.
Do you want to recover? No way.
hm.
Lately, I've been doing alright.
The biggest problem is that my best friend's back from China. . and I go to her house a lot, where she expects me to eat.
Hmm.
I'm going to have to think of a way around that.
Fast.
Love you girls!
Keep strong!
My ana myspace is:
www.myspace.com/addictionprescription
Send me an invite =] If you're ana, I'll add you.
I'm on GV too. My unsername's anaannie. Looooook me up. =]
<3
The biggest problem is that my best friend's back from China. . and I go to her house a lot, where she expects me to eat.
Hmm.
I'm going to have to think of a way around that.
Fast.
Love you girls!
Keep strong!
My ana myspace is:
www.myspace.com/addictionprescription
Send me an invite =] If you're ana, I'll add you.
I'm on GV too. My unsername's anaannie. Looooook me up. =]
<3
7/14/09
day 2 failure
bagel.
no cal. butter spray.
green tea with two teaspoons of sugar.
shoot me.
starting from day one.
going to burn 3 times the cals i ingested tonight.
<3
no cal. butter spray.
green tea with two teaspoons of sugar.
shoot me.
starting from day one.
going to burn 3 times the cals i ingested tonight.
<3
7/13/09
seriously
Best forum: http://forum.glitterveins.com
Sorry I haven't updated lately.
I might have to make this blog a diary (seen by me only). . unless any of you girls know how to make it so only approved viewers can see it.
Saturday:
some kind of food- purged
total: 0 cals.
Yesterday:
75% of a soft taco- don't even know how many calories. 200? 300? FML.
tiny sip of chocolate shake from Arbys- 20 cals?
20 oz. diet peach iced tea from Arbys- 0 cals.
2 pieces of sugarfree strawberry mint orbit gum- 10 cals.
total: 230-330 cals.
Today is day 1 of a 3 day fast.
Hopefully I can go to a friend's house tonight so I don't have to eat.
Otherwise it'll be a little challenging.
I haven't even been hungry lately.
Sometimes my stomach will make weird noises and contract. It hurts.
It feels good though.
I'm doing 1 bottle of water every hour.
Exercise:
300 crunches
4 mile walk/jog
40 push ups
Stay strong, loves.
Sorry I haven't updated lately.
I might have to make this blog a diary (seen by me only). . unless any of you girls know how to make it so only approved viewers can see it.
Saturday:
some kind of food- purged
total: 0 cals.
Yesterday:
75% of a soft taco- don't even know how many calories. 200? 300? FML.
tiny sip of chocolate shake from Arbys- 20 cals?
20 oz. diet peach iced tea from Arbys- 0 cals.
2 pieces of sugarfree strawberry mint orbit gum- 10 cals.
total: 230-330 cals.
Today is day 1 of a 3 day fast.
Hopefully I can go to a friend's house tonight so I don't have to eat.
Otherwise it'll be a little challenging.
I haven't even been hungry lately.
Sometimes my stomach will make weird noises and contract. It hurts.
It feels good though.
I'm doing 1 bottle of water every hour.
Exercise:
300 crunches
4 mile walk/jog
40 push ups
Stay strong, loves.
7/10/09
the best sites
http://www.blue-dragonfly.org
http://www.freewebs.com/pollygold/
http://www.anorexics.net/
http://www.angelfire.com/id/bravejarvissa
http://www.anorexiaandbulimia.co.nr/
http://www.pro-thinspo.com/
http://www.freewebs.com/hate-ed/
More to come . .
http://www.freewebs.com/pollygold/
http://www.anorexics.net/
http://www.angelfire.com/id/bravejarvissa
http://www.anorexiaandbulimia.co.nr/
http://www.pro-thinspo.com/
http://www.freewebs.com/hate-ed/
More to come . .
the best tips
Here are some of the best tips I've found:
Chew and spit, don't swallow.
Do two sit-ups for every calorie you eat.
Put too much salt/pepper/spice on your food so that it tastes bad to you.
Eat with your left hand if you're right handed, right if you're left handed.
When you're hungry, chug water (2 or more glasses).
Clean something disgusting, like a toilet. You'll loose your appetite.
Brush your teeth a lot.
It takes twelve hours for the body to start feeding off its own fat.
<3
Chew and spit, don't swallow.
Do two sit-ups for every calorie you eat.
Put too much salt/pepper/spice on your food so that it tastes bad to you.
Eat with your left hand if you're right handed, right if you're left handed.
When you're hungry, chug water (2 or more glasses).
Clean something disgusting, like a toilet. You'll loose your appetite.
Brush your teeth a lot.
It takes twelve hours for the body to start feeding off its own fat.
<3
7/7/09
alchol
Today I'm doing a total water fast with one exception. I'm going to drink a little bit because I feel like shit and I need to relax. =]
On an empty stomach it shouldn't take a ton of alcohol to get me buzzed.
Alrighhhtie.
<3
On an empty stomach it shouldn't take a ton of alcohol to get me buzzed.
Alrighhhtie.
<3
meh.
I haven't been doing awesome lately.
Turning over a new leaf. . so to speak.
Under 100 calories for the next 5 days, totaling 500 calories at the very most for 5 days. Hopefully that will stop me from being constantly hungry.
Turning over a new leaf. . so to speak.
Under 100 calories for the next 5 days, totaling 500 calories at the very most for 5 days. Hopefully that will stop me from being constantly hungry.
7/1/09
first of july
Breakfast: nothing.
Lunch: nothing.
Dinner: peach iced tea- 0 cals.
1 piece strawberry orbit gum- 5 cals. (seriously? in a piece of gum?)
Nothing else.
Good day. =]
<3
Lunch: nothing.
Dinner: peach iced tea- 0 cals.
1 piece strawberry orbit gum- 5 cals. (seriously? in a piece of gum?)
Nothing else.
Good day. =]
<3
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